There are days where I choose to see the positive in everything and every new diagnoses. But there are also those days where I want to ask "why?" and I just fall into a dark place. Slip into a depressed state and shut the world out. Some times I can't be 100% about how I feel or what I am going through because of how others may feel or take it...so I shut down and the wall goes up. One of my many online support groups posted this poem and it shocked me because it summed up how I feel some days. Sometimes you just need to cry and let it ALL out!
My Friend, I Care
Don't t tell me that you understand.
Don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.
Don't tell me this is just a test, that I am truly blessed -
That I am chosen for this task,
Apart from all the rest.
Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me.
Don't tell me how this will pass,
That I will soon be free.
Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bounds I must untie,
Don't tell me how to suffer,
And don't tell me not to cry.
My life is filled with selfishness right now,
My pain is all I see,
But I need you and I need your love,
Unconditionally.
Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say to me "My friend, I care."
- Joanetta Hendel -
