New Treatment Results Round 2
Today, one of my many new doctors on my Hematology team came in with the results of my new treatment second attempt. As I mentioned yesterday my platelet count was at 3,000 after the first attempt of the new treatment, IVIG...Today they jumped to 67,000! I stayed positive about this new treatment and look what happened!
Letting Go and Letting God
Slowly but surely I feel my faith in Him coming back. This will open happen at my pace and in my own time! It cannot be rushed by anyone or anything. I know that I am a blessed person because I have the best support system that anyone could ever ask for.
After the results of this morning I know that there is a greater being watching over me regardless of how I feel about faith right now. I know that He knows that I am simply displacing my anger and He can handle this.
What I Am Thinking Right Now
Yesterday someone told me that medical school was not lost from my life, but it is not for me to say right now. I know that something is changing about where I will go with my future and maybe this is His way of telling me that I need a new direction in life. Maybe my calling is to help people get through times like this on a more emotional level.
As I have learned through this process, I can only take my life one day at a time. I am realizing that no one can make this decision for me. After all the people I have met that have gone through a similar situation...they too have changed their calling to suit helping people more. I know He is trying to tell me something and it is up to me to figure it out.
I feel that a new chapter in my life has begun! Time for me to begin my exploration!
Sheila, you show a sense of maturtiy way above your 21 yrs. You are destined to do great things with your life. Just maybe being a Doctor isn't "good enough" for you. Only GOD knows what he has planned for you. Just know that a lot of people are praying for you.
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